10.8.2010

今天派了英文考卷
37.5 over 100
第三科了。。
真的不懂要怎样。。
真的很想哭。。。可是自己一个人反而哭不出
刚刚发了封信息给妈妈
说又fail了
电话直接打来
眼泪直接崩溃
真的觉得很内疚
在这里住最好的
不愁吃喝
什么都是新的
结果还是读到这个猫样
我真的真的很伤心
不是我没有努力
只是
我真的不明白我努力的成果为什么是一只fail
不懂我是读来及格
还是读来fail
不懂努力来干嘛。。
每天对着书
一直查字典
Assignment每次很努力的做
一不懂就去问老师
数学不会做一有时间就找朋友出来教我
这些东西
以前的我根本就不会管
Project最后一分钟才借朋友的来copy and paste
考试fail了就算
数学功课每次借朋友的来抄
真的有了一百八十度的转变。。
虽然说万事起头难
可是这未免太难了吧
我真的接受不了这个残酷的事实。。
真的很辛苦。。。
我一直以为有努力就有收获
可是我的收获是一次又一次的伤心
每次看到成绩一点喜悦感都没有
不止在成绩
Dota
爱情
什么都输的一败涂地
每个人都有他特别厉害的东西
可是
我发现
我真的什么都没有
读书不行
Dota又noob
爱情？对我来说根本就是奢望。。。
还有谁比我更失败的？

4.8.2010

今天很空闲一下
其实是很忙的
难得Class取消下午在房间
看了一下书。。
大概半个小时
好像过了半天那么久>.<
真的很毒烂MPW。。。
做么我的course work的分数
那么少。。
如果那个拿80.5的人是我不是好咯。。
下个礼拜一的Final做objective就可以了。。。
还是不用看题目的那种。。
就可以及格过关了
再也不用看到那个样衰衰的raymond lee
还有很难读的MPW notes了。。

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最近很emo啊。。。
睡不好
一直想东想西的。。。
控制不了自己的思绪。。
真的很讨厌咯。。
越来越不想读书了。。。
可是每次这个念头一出来
我又不想放弃。。
矛盾到死。。。
我真的
快疯了。。。。

放假～～

终于放假了
一放就是两个星期
爽到。。。
看起来是很爽
其实
一点也不爽
五个Assignment><
放完了还有MPW的Final
不懂怎样死？？
今天大半天都在FB><
Assignment做了一点
很懒惰做><
没有心情去做research...
这样下去不能
一定要快点做完
然后玩到够够力！！！

Back To The Base

as title...
back to the base...
这篇部落格用华语写。。。
只有用华语才能够写得更清楚。。。
这个星期我又待在Nilai了。。
连续两个星期没有出去。。
读书读到我想死了。。。
我真的很累了。。。
不是累到想睡觉的那种累
这种累我不会形容
我只能说我很累。。。
真的很想停下来
可是我懂我不能就这样放弃
这是我的未来
我的前途
朋友们都在为前途努力
成绩比我好很多倍的朋友都很痛苦下
何况是我
努力其实真的不代表什么
来到了INTI我真的有着一百八十度的转变
以前我是一天打DOTA，打足十二个小时
现在呢？
我一天读书读足7，8个小时
我真的很努力了
可是说是简单，其实真真做起来真的很困难
真的不是说What you give
就可以what you get...
即使我真的很用心的去了解
去背。。
可是考试我还是不会。。
天分
有些人读十分钟就会了
有些人则是读了一辈子都未必可以领悟到其中的妙处。。
勤力其实真不代表什么。。
我很累。。
可不可以让我停下来？？
我真的不想坚持下去了。。。
我没有用。。。

MGT,MPW Test 1~~

==
because of this subject i dun know study liao how long time
but the result still is so yum gong ==
make me bo mood nia==
always attack my confidence nia....
next week still have math and IT test...
this weekend also is a study week @@
actually really feel tired...
before i think hardworking can cover everything
but i notice that
hardworking is not really mean all...
really need talent de==
damm sibeh no mood now==

Random Record 28/6/2010

today is monday liao
time pass really damm fast><
today 4oc i wake up already==
1st time i wake up so early for my study....
even during SPM study time me and eddy and chaos also never success wake up so early
to study><
now because a small test1 entirely make me so hardworking
because of this test i really break many record><
1st time study alone more than 6 hour per day
1st time no touch any game during the test period
already 8day no touch DOTA and FIFA10
actually DOTA is a pass liao...
after i come to INTI i only have play 3 game
1 game with soon kuan and jia chun
2 game with adam, miki, soon yang
i still can remember last time how i spend my time into this game
but now it is not important in my life
now my eye only have xxx and study
hiak hiak


skip


today i wake up so early actually have another reason de
i promise my lovely, and funny miss jun yan
will accompany her break1st de
but she sms tell me
she not coming today
she coming today night and her airplane is tomorrow morning
walao><
i sibeh "zha dao"
but nvm la
tml morning what time leh??
after u read this blog then sms inform me a
tml i have class at 10....
but i also will wake up in early morning de
so inform me ya^^
and wan to tell u after go there dun forget me a
dun have cat boy then forget jack T__T
and ho
dun senang senang give people tipu
"defend people heart cannot no have" ==
take care and friend forever~~

skip

ok la today write until here 1st
wan go out lunch and find some 1 to teach me do add math liao ><
today de lesson i dun know what mean also ><
next monday math test liao time
gg.com T___T
before die at math test i think
this wednesday de MPW and thursday de MGT also is

VERY VERY VERY HORROR~~

"观世音菩萨“bless me please =.=|||

1st time

this is the 1st time i using english to write my blog
dun know will have the second chance or not
hehe
because of laiyee she suggest me use english to write my blog
she think like this can improve my english
even i using the "chines english"(still have rojak language)
but still is english ma...
can de la
everything start with broken english ^_^
this weekend is the 1st weekend i stay at INTI hostel
today i wake up at 8:30
after have my break1st and take bath
i start study the MPW(sejarah)
really hardworking la
after i come into INTI....
maybe is stress make me grow up
i always force my self go to study><
today i spend more than 5hour on my study....
1st time study alone with so long time><
the time pass really fast when i study...
but the efficiency is damm bad..
i use so many time to only understand and memorize something....
i only finish two lesson by using so long time...
i really lack of time
even i lack of time but u also take sometime use to write this blog
because 1 week at least update 1 time ma ^^
later try to study a litter bit more MGT
the fucking sohai brainless subject><
i really hate it....
but i had to face it 1 semester
and cant fail it
i need to pass it with a good result!
because wan pass it
i dun know i still need use how many time on it
i need memorize,memorize and memorize..
i damm dulan this subject ><
but i have no other choice><
i need to continue....
gambateh ba ><
(actually i dun know what i write also >< but nvm la blog is write for myself de ^_^)